I lived in an apartment that I was unhappy about for 11 years.  I stayed at a job for over 6 years that failed to inspire me and that I failed to bring inspiration to.  I prayed and asked for change on a regular basis and before I knew it, I got what I asked for.  I am no longer in that apartment and I no longer have the job. 

Although I have no regrets, this new landscape does not look quite like I imagined.  My Higher Self decided to “act as if” on my behalf.  I feel like the higher part of me is squeezing me emotionally and spiritually, trying to mine the gold within me that leads to health, emotional prosperity and joyful living.  My Higher Self has communicated to me – very clearly and in a loving way – that it will no longer allow me to drag my feet.  I know that I have an important job to do while occupying this physical body.  For a long while now, I have been denying my blessings by failing to deliver my gifts.  

Last week, I dreamt of myself in a swimming race where I was the leader.  About one-third of the way through the last lap, I just stopped and gave up.  I was in the lead, still had energy and just stopped cold turkey and failed to reach the finish line.  I see dreams as the Higher Self communicating with me and assisting me with my spiritual development.  Right now, I am unsure of exactly what this dream means.  Someone said to me that it sounded like a 'fear of success' dream. 

For now, I am just going to sit with it and allow more to be revealed to me as I am still not sure.  Right now, a part of me does feel afraid to step into the power of my soul, or as I like to call it, that swagger that comes with really trusting my instincts and intuition. 

When I trust myself, magnificent things happen.  I am challenged by the apparent conflict between what I see around me and what I know is possible.  Since I had this dream I'm more motivated to see my problems and doubts as opportunities to utilize my tools and reinforce what I know about the laws of the universe.

Creativity paired with intuition generates what I call soul swagger: knowing you're a part of the essence of everything, therefore negative judgement about yourself and others has no place.  Instead of breaking down, comparing and critiquing, you're focused on celebrating life, love and accomplishment.

I have been blessed with the ability to see things with my third eye.  I am a clairvoyant and intuitive.  I possess the natural ability and I have done the work and acquired the tools to make sure that what I read and see is based in truth.  From this day forward, I chose to embrace that and do all that I can to share these gifts to help myself and others to become more in alignment with our soul swag -the authentic and highest part of ourselves that works to deliver tangible magic. 

For the rest of the year, I will be helping Soul Medicine practitioner and my business mentor, Laurie Lamson facilitate energy clinics and follow-up group transformational healings to increase personal & collective soul swagger (more info.)

Lately, I have been inspired by one of the Queens of Soul Swag, Ms. Erykah Badu.  Talk about a Goddess radiating pure love and light.  She speaks directly to my Higher Self and my heart.  I am so grateful for her music and her energy.  Her music inspires me and reminds me how much powers lies within feminine creativity.  

Also, I would like to share with you some insight from my brother and one of my biggest supporters and role-models of ‘soul swag’, Mr. Emmanuel Dagher.  Check out one of his Energy Forecasts explaining the divine transformation that is taking place with our collective masculine and feminine energies titled: What is ‘Really’ Happening Right Now?  

Listen, read and meditate… get your soul swag on. 

“If we can’t see things as they genuinely are it’s hard to create what we’d really like”

Seeing things as they are can sometimes be challenging for even the most grounded. Right now I am challenged by bridging the gap between thinking positive/holding the highest vision and seeing the situation for what it truly is. 

Infinite Spirit tells me that visioning and visualizing the highest outcome can really only apply to things which are within my power.  When it comes to influencing others, it is best I look at the reality of how this person is behaving and use that as a marker for how to proceed; remembering that every living being has free will.  I can vision and have the best thoughts and intention towards another person and after that it is time to shift my focus back to where I can exercise influence – to myself and my own behavior.

On a personal level, I can change my reactions and interactions with this person.  I find that this space is one of the best places to begin the healing when dealing with a painful situation or relationship. 

First, I benefit by seeing things as they truly are and accepting them.  For example, “This situation is not working, time to move on”. 

Second, I forgive the situation and the person, moving me through the grief process. 

Third, I identify my participation and how that participation has contributed to the discord. 

Fourth, I take the responsibility by working on my hang-ups and issues, taking the time to honor myself by using my healing tools.  Whether it be reading, writing, or an appointment with an energy healer, massage therapist or counselor, to get to the bottom of my issues, it is important I take the responsibility to heal myself. 

Easier said than done, but the more I do this, this gets easier each time - I can bounce back from the trauma. 

Yes, I backslide on occasion, and the rewards are so much greater when I just forgive myself, move on and focus on the things that are within my power.  By remaining in a prayerful and gracious mindset - realizing that by being in constant communication with the Infinite Spirit I am consciously a part of my own healing and transformation – each day gets me closer to my innate creativity and closer to experiences I really like.   

I thought I fully understood this quote; however, after having a little one my own, I realized there was more to learn.  Babies come out genius and are born master teachers.  They teach us something new everyday about themselves and our surroundings... such as staying in the present moment and maintaining a state of resilient amusement. 

Staying in the present moment is where our power (love energy) resides. When we stay in the present moment, the past dissolves and we are unconcerned about the future, which allows us to let go of stress and needless worry.  By taking in what surrounds us, we begin to notice new and exciting perspectives on everyday objects, people and places, therefore, opening us up to receive clearer instant messages from our Higher Self, putting us more in alignment with our Divine nature. (See Laurie's article on Developing Intuition.)

When I am on the floor playing with my daughter, totally engaged and present in what I am doing, I receive ideas and bursts of clarity which really energizes me.  This energy increases life force.  By increasing my life force, I am beginning to notice my emotional and physical body become more resilient. I mean, think about it, if we believe in the law of attraction, then we know that we attract what we focus on. 

Also, it is becoming easier for me to let go of my anger.  I may have been angry a minute ago, and now a new minute is here and I desire a different experience.  Watching my daughter learn to sit up, she would bump her head periodically (because it weighs a ton and could be mistaken for a weapon of mass destruction - she already given me a black eye!) and cry out in pain for the moment, then get distracted by one of her toys on the floor next to her and start smiling and laughing. 

Amazing. 

I am glad I got that lesson because it has made my life easier….and anything that makes life easier is genius!

My idea of a witch was formed from The Wizard of Oz, the TV show Bewitched, Grimms’ fairytales and other stories.  These stories emphasized that a Witch was defined by how she chose to use her special powers.  The Wicked Witch of the West intimidates and enslaves others for selfish reasons, while Glenda uses her power to spread love and help Dorothy with her personal growth - more like how we think of an angel.

So to me a witch is someone with special powers with the free will on how to use them.  She might be tempted to harm others if she is self-centered, greedy or uncaring.  Or she can use it for good if she wants to contribute to the well-being of others and the planet. 

But witches still have a terrible reputation.  According to Wikipedia: Witchcraft, in various historical, anthropological, religious and mythological contexts, is the alleged use of supernatural or magical powers. Historically, it was widely believed that witchcraft involved the use of these powers to inflict harm upon members of a community or their property.

Witch-hunting was common and legally sanctioned in Europe for 300 years, reaching its fever pitch from around 1550-1650 - when thousands were convicted of witchcraft on flimsy evidence and mean-spirited accusations.  Given the huge numbers of alleged witches who were killed, in retrospect, this witch fever has been diagnosed as mass hysteria.  (See link below for a fascinating article on a number of these factors and some myth busting about the witch hunts themselves - as well as chilling information about witch hunts going on today).  

One factor not discussed in this article but I think still relevant - there were certain people who understood the power of plants - the calming, tonifying, healing effects of various herbs and combinations of herbs.  This must have seemed like magic at the time.  The medical establishment then (as now) treated patients a tad more aggressively.  Feel sluggish?  We’ll attach a few leeches and drain your blood.  Have a sore on your leg?  We better hurry up and cut it off.  The results were hit and miss and these doctors of medicine didn’t appreciate a mere woman getting results with her ‘magical’ concoctions.  It must be the devil’s work!

what if little girls could make magic in their own backyard?I wrote a book for girls called Witch Littles: Magic In The Garden.  A handful of people suggested I take the word ‘witch’ off the cover because some would be offended or frightened by it - even though the cover is light and playful. I was truly surprised by this  - after all, we’ve had a steady supply of entertainment featuring witches both good and bad.   Are people really scared of a children’s book?

That made me want to help reinvent the word Witch - so long associated with a negative, frightened idea about (empowered) women.  In this story, my little witches communicate with nature and discover how powerful their intentions and words are - that we have a real effect on the world around us. Because they are motivated by love, they choose to use their powers for good.

 And don’t we all have that choice?  We each have gifts and powers - and we each have the free will to choose how we use them.  Do we hide from our own power, pretending we’re helpless, feeling like a victim of life?  Do we use it to manipulate, cheat or hurt others?  Or do we use our gifts and powers to do good, to share love, offer assistance, help make the world a better place?  If so, Glenda the Good Witch could be an example of how to do this gracefully - she was there to help, without imposing her own agenda on Dorothy. 

So what’s the difference between magic and miracles?  “A miracle is an unexpected event attributed to divine intervention.”   To me, magic is using our free will and positive intentions to work with the divine - the unified field - infinite, unconditional love - whatever you call it - to bring about the positive results we desire - even if they seem impossible to achieve on our own.

Learn more about the European witch-hunts.

One of my favorite speakers was Bruce Lipton who gave a simple, very clear explanation of four erroneous scientific assumptions most societies have been operating under for far too long.  These assumptions make us feel like helpless victims of biology and life - they’ve since been proven wrong, but they’re so ingrained most of society is still operating under what have turned out to be limiting beliefs.  Dr. Lipton elegantly proposed the small adjustments needed to correct each of these mis-assumptions - his material is truly worth exploring.

Barbara Marx Hubbard has been seeking the good in our evolution for the last 50+ years and I encourage everyone I meet to see her HUMANITY ASCENDING documentary - it helps keep me optimistic.  I quote it often.

Looking at the seeming obstacles to our evolution, it is easy to feel defeated.  I have felt it myself many times - I think it was Marianne Williamson who talked about thousands of children dying from starvation - every day.  That is disheartening, to say the least.

What inspired me most in the presentation was a speaker I wasn’t familiar with (and can't remember her name). She shared that think tanks around the world are studying how a small group of only 200 artists and philosophers, financially supported by only one family (the Medicis) managed to pull Western civilization out of the Dark Ages into the Renaissance era.  True, there were a lot less people living at that time, and it only lasted about 25 years.

But now millions of people living today share these values and characteristics (and many others):

• strong awareness of the planet-wide issues (i.e. climate change, poverty, overpopulation, etc.) and a desire to see more action on them
• willingness to pay higher taxes or spend more money for goods if that money went to improving the environment
• want government to spend more money on education, community programs and the support of a more ecologically sustainable future
• the importance of developing and maintaining relationships
• the importance of helping others and developing their unique gifts
• intense interest in spiritual and psychological development
• desire equity for women/men in business, life and politics
• concern and support of the well-being (& freedom) of all women and children
• are concerned with big business and the means they use to generate profits, including destroying the environment and exploiting poorer countries
• want to be involved in creating a new and better way of life

The turn of the millennium saw a name being coined for these strange beings - they are the Cultural Creatives.  Lately, it is estimated 35% of the U.S. population share these values - and with that large of numbers, real change is quite possible, if we only insist on creating the humane and just world we envision.  

All of this has renewed my lifelong hope and vision that we can change and adapt to become a more cooperative and just species.  Barbara Marx Hubbard says evolution is always in the direction of more cooperation and she sees a new type of human emerging - what she calls Homo Universalis.

Environmental disasters like the BP oil spill have made it clear that all of the whole is effected by whatever happens to the parts, so we need to and we are starting to see ourselves more universally - as part of the same human family and ecosystem. 

Cultural Creatives are pushing this change. Ralphs is trying to look like Whole Foods, Pepsi wants to be associated with peace and love, the A.M.A. wants to take over alternative healthcare....  We just have to recognize our own power to help our species evolve and answer the inner inspiration to action.

So I say, let’s take heart in the fact that change is happening in all areas  - business, health, education, environment, more equitable personal relationships - and we can all be part of helping these changes happen - Cultural Creatives and Evolutionary Leaders Unite!

The stream isn't posted yet but I hope you get a chance to check it out:  Evolutionary Leaders.

It becomes difficult to interact with others when fear, tension and sensitivity become companions we take with us wherever we go.  My sister, unfortunately, really takes things to heart and has challenges in just accepting others as they are.  She feels victimized and assaulted by others on a regular basis; so much so, that in the past she alienated those who love her the most. 

Sometimes, I wonder if these types of emotions are genetic because I can really relate to her struggle.  However, in my case, there is no excuse because I am well aware of the root cause and have the tools to heal. No, I do not and have never had shingles.  Nevertheless, these same 'companions' (negative thought patterns) can bring other types of friends to the party, such as vitiligo, which is something I do have. 

I honestly feel like these two physical challenges stem from the same type of emotional hang-ups, only they attack the immune system differently, based on the individual.  Ms. Hay defines vitiligo as stemming from an emotional condition of, “feeling completely outside of things”, “not belonging”, “not one of the group”.  These thoughts brew fear and tension.  Feeling victimized and overlooked; I must admit at times, even after all I know about the energy healing and the power of thought, I still feel this way. 

These auto-immune conditions mean that the body is turning on itself. Translation: We are actually the ones who are hurting ourselves by inviting these feelings/thoughts into our brains and body.  We let them in when they knock.  They come in and effect our behavior - turning those we need and love against us. 

Well, the only thing to do about it is to clean house and stop inviting these little buggers in to crash the party.  Once again, I am seeing with crystal clarity that it all begins with my thoughts. Whether I succeed or fail, whether I live healthy or decide to put one foot in the grave.  It is my thoughts that dictate my conditions in life.  So simple, but not easy – so much programming, societal conditioning and whatnot…

Well time to let all that go – who am I and what do I want?  I see the only honorable way to find out is by staying focused on the positive qualities and contributions.  Stay laughing at life.  “How?"  I hear my inner child ask.  This is a question I have to answer for myself.  No one can answer it for me….part of the journey of life.

I love my sister and want her to get better and not have to suffer.  I have the power to make this happen by healing myself and remembering that we are all inter-connected.  So, in eradicating my party-crashers, I can help her, because some of the same DNA that runs through my body runs through hers.  I see this as partially my responsibility because I am my sister’s keeper.  Time to replace my party-crashers with thoughts such as, “I am at the very center of Life, and I am totally connected to Love” and help my sister understand through my actions that it is possible for us to remain “relaxed and peaceful because we trust the process of life and all is really" – at the end of the day – "well in our world”.

For more information about the energetic, emotional root causes of disease and their positive new thought pattern replacement please visit: Louise Hay.



Some see denial as a saviour.

Some say denial is what helped our ancestors survive during harrowing trials and tribulations. What is denial actually?

Webster’s defines it as 1: refusal to satisfy a request or desire 2a (1): refusal to admit the truth or reality.

I am learning that the truth differs for many and at times we remain in denial to stay in our comfort zone. Facing the truth takes courage because the truth can be ugly and hard to

deal with. However, I have learned that if we deal with truths on the front-end - in the present - at the time they are happening, we save our self from dire consequences later on. 

Yet, speaking the truth allows us to know ourselves better; gives us permission to continue to make choices that are best for our souls. This in turn fuels our confidence making it a lot easier for us to embrace our strengths and weaknesses.

For me denial has been that thorn in my side. Ever since I can remember, a form of denial or – let’s just let the cat out of the bag – lying, has saved my ass on many occasions.

Today, I chose the unadulterated truth. This truth-seeking has me going through withdrawal symptoms. I find certain situations challenging and this confusion has a tendency to immobilize me. Makes me very nervous and anxious; I must stop and take the time to work through my own cognitive dissonance before I can react, and sometimes it is too late. The moments can and do evaporate.

Truthfully, I feel at times like I must deny my real feelings and desires in order to please others, or be accepted. For so long, I believed that my own feelings and emotions did not matter, so now they are difficult for me to recognize. In the past, when I spoke the truth my memories are of being ridiculed, disciplined or shunned. I rarely remember speaking my truth and being accepted for it. So I made it a habit to go along with status quo.

I am moving away from this cowardly behavior. In order for me to truly heal myself and others, I must be the truth not just speak it. Also, I must be mindful how I 'speak the truth'.   Truth is compassionate and does not judge. It delivers itself from a place of neutrality, unattached from any emotion.. . but baby steps for me. We will address that topic in another blog.

In the meantime, ask yourself, “Am I comfortable speaking my truth?"  If not, why not?

Was most impressed by the wise, articulate and surprisingly young Tala Mohebi, Editor-In-Chief of Public Diplomacy Magazine from USC.  The latest (winter 2010) issue is all about ‘Cultural Diplomacy’.

Excerpt From the Editors by Tala Mohebi, Katharine Keith, John Nahas, “Governments, non-state actors, multinational corporations and influential individuals have all, at some point, utilized culture as a tool for communicating and relating to foreign as well as domestic audiences. While this is common practice, it is not always correctly identified as cultural diplomacy. Our goal in this issue is to bring together the history and theory that underpins this element of diplomacy in order to recognize its value as well as its limitations." 

I recommend the World Without Walls article.

The SOA Symposium wrapped up with a fitting presentation that BLEW MY MIND:  

BELLA GAIA: A Poetic Vision of Earth From Space was shown in giant projection on a dome ceiling to simulate a space travel experience.  I believe the director’s goal is to impart the same kind of paradigm expansion astronauts had viewing Earth from a distance - and to me, he succeeds in that, and much more.

Director Kenji Williams combined NASA footage, visual exploration of select locations around the planet, super-fast time-lapse photography of polar ice caps receding with each passing year, animated text of astronauts’ formulae and simple, dynamic graphics demonstrating what’s happening on different parts of the globe (such as oil consumption).  Gives you a lot to think about, yet in a gentle, subtle, heart-expanding way.

The soundtrack consists of a few astronauts’ powerful observations in their own words, and a world beat instrumental score accompanied by live violin played, by Kenji himself.

A celebration of our beautiful Earth - I found this to be a powerfully moving, not-to-be-missed experience.  And this film has taken on a life of its own as it continues to be updated with new images captured by NASA and National Geographic photographers around the world. 

Big thanks to this visionary for making such a remarkable work of art, with the potential to open people’s hearts and minds to the bigger picture of living here together on this planet.

Check out the BELLA GAIA promo below.  I hope you get to have the full experience sometime.



Our friend and fellow healer Emmanuel sent out an “Energy Forecast” about the huge & powerful ‘waves of light’ energy that are “pouring into every cell & fiber of the earth”. He summarizes how this wave of light “stirs up & brings everything that no longer serves us to the surface”. I have been experiencing this.

Today it became crystal to clear to me where these negative triggers come from. They begin with my perceptions. I have been contemplating why I really just don’t want to do anything but what I want to do. I could candy-coat it and say something else, but honestly the truth is I have a ‘lazy button’ because of my perceptions or ‘take on things’….and the kicker is that it becomes an uncontrollable loop; I don’t want to do anything, that I don’t want to do; then when I really want to do something, I fail to because the ‘get up and move’ button has atrophied.

How sad, tragic & comical at the same time. This has been a pattern of mine for many years now. Most would say that this is a state of depression. Honestly, to quote a cliché – ‘been there, done that’. Besides at this stage in the game, I really do not possess the commitment to be categorized as a depressed person.

Back to perceptions; in taking the time to really look at myself with a high-powered mirror, I see this all stems from my thoughts. I have been taking ‘thought inventories’ for the last 24 hours and these suckers are enough to sideline anybody. I am really shocked at the thoughts that go through my mind on a daily basis. On a few occasions, I had to talk myself back from the edge! It is as if I abandoned myself in these moments.

For example, my boyfriend got up & went in the other room to listen to jazz. After he departed the room, I put together 5 different scenarios of why he left the room & they all had to do with me being the problem. Now, that is just plain silly thinking & some may say I have too much time on my hands - but even in the throes of work, I get distracted by these types of dastardly thoughts. Maybe he got up to go into the other room because he wanted to go listen to jazz - PERIOD. Nothing more, nothing less.

Why did I decide to make a soap opera out of it? - because my perception of myself is skewed. I felt unworthy of his company. Once I told my mind to stop, erase that tape, I then consciously began to think positive thoughts about myself. Thoughts more in alignment with who I truly am & growing into. By focusing on the good in myself I was able to change my perception of the situation. Once I was able to change my perception, I was then able to move forward & get some things done.

Most of the time, this type of behavior winds up ‘taking me out of the game’ because I react from my thoughts and wind up looking foolish or just destroying an innocent moment. I guess we all have our pathologies!

What I described is just a small example of an avalanche of thoughts that can derail us on a somewhat regular basis. So if you find yourself dragging your feet and failing to get things done in timely fashion you may want to check your perception & thoughts for their worthiness quotient. The marvelous thing is that you can heal yourself. Once we step out of denial and admit that we no longer want to carry whatever behaviors are bogging us down, we can then see through the shame, take action and move forward. Also, by learning to forgive ourselves we can then ‘pick up the pace’ on our path of self-healing & awareness.

To read more about the “Waves of Light” please visit:
http://transformational-times.blogspot.com/

To learn more about the “12 Stages of Healing” please visit:
http://www.10ac.com/12stages.htm

Yesterday I was walking on the beach thinking about my mother. It is a little over 9 years since she died of ovarian cancer after a 4-year battle that ended December 13, 2000. (Most people with her diagnosis are gone within 1 to 1-1/2 years) When she passed she was technically 59, but more like going on 39.

I say this because my mother had more energy than most people far younger than she. Anyone who spent time with her was amazed, entertained, educated and inspired by her unwavering curiosity about people and places and her fearless appetite for life. I believe her constant state of staying interested and and continuing to learn and grow is what kept her so young.

Just a couple of examples of her uniqueness - she decided when she was in the third grade that she would become a psychologist. This was in the middle of the 50s, when I daresay most young girls had never heard of a psychologist and held much more fanciful and/or modest aspirations.

Before she was 20 she had saved enough money for a tour of Europe. It was the first of her many adventurous travels touching most of the globe, including a solo visit to West Africa.

She left us far too early - when she still had so much that she wanted to experience and learn, and so much to give - as a psychologist, a companion, and a mother.

I try not to think about this too often - but I do wonder if she would still be alive if I knew then all I have since learned about energy medicine. She put a lot of faith in traditional allopathic medicine, but certainly she would have been open to trying it. I can’t help thinking it would have been beneficial, and could even have brought her back to health.

While walking and thinking these thoughts, a few tears welling in my eyes, it came to me that perhaps I could make a difference for people facing cancer - even if they’re somewhat skeptical about what I do. By offering it as a free or low-cost group healing for cancer patients (and survivors) we could make it so even the most skeptical person might be willing to try it and take whatever benefit we can offer.

When I finished my walk and got back to the car, Lisa Garr was on the Aware Show talking with a Doctor Burton Goldberg who has traveled the world documenting alternative cancer treatments and researching their effectiveness. He is constantly amazed by his findings and his prognosis for cancer patients is very optimistic. This serendipity was inspiring and served to reinforce my idea to start working with cancer patients.

So I’d like to start a Cancer Energy Clinic - with group healing focused on cancer issues - so if you’re reading this and know anyone who might benefit - please sign up for the newsletter to stay informed and send your suggestions.

Learn more about Dr. Goldberg’s documentary and alternative cancer therapy research: http://www.burtongoldberg.com/